used to be those (winter 2017)

It’s been a long time did not write any things in this blog.

I feel happy to be back...

Now the winter is almost end... and summer will be coming soon. I forget to write my story that happened in winter 2017. It was really amazing, although actually it was supeeeeer superrrrr super tight!!

I was being a hostfamily again ((again)) for a second time. It wasn’t what I want at that time. I didn’t expect to be a hostfamily in this winter 2017. But, my friend asked me, because there was difficult to find a hf. Though I will have a project that is called KKN.

Some of my friend always think that I chose to do KKN project in Semarang, because I will be a hostfam. -___- omyGod!! You just don’t understand! I have already chosen Semarang before they asked me to be a hf. (I chose Semarang, cause I didn’t want to feel drop and stress, but then yeah I felt drop and went to hospital tho!).

Well, so in this winter my activities were doing KKN project as I am a chief of education field, teaching as a private teacher, manage my own business, wishing that the tittle of my final paper will be accepted, and being a host family. Soooo tight even I still feel how busy I was!!

At that time, I was being a hf of Korean boy student which is a year elder than me ((oppa)). I didn’t understand why there were so many people who picked him up in the airport. “Were they like Korean ???” (just like my friends). That question came up on my mind, cause when I picked up an exchange participant who lived in my house (summer 2016) from other country, there were just me, sister, and one committee.

I didn’t choose Korean student to stay in my house because I am a Korean fan. For a God sake~ I ain’t a fan of KPOP/ KDRAMA/ its boysband/ girlsband...it just between the committee and mom’s deal.

First impression in meeting him was like I mirrored my self. He was cool, rude, arrogant, and always chases higher goals. I used to be those!!! Even until now when my friend met me for the first time, they thought that I was arrogant.

Talking bout chasing higher goals, I used to be that tho!! (ANYWAY I’M NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT OPPA WHO STAYED IN MY HOUSE FOR 5 WEEKS, so you can skip)

....(continue) when I was in High school, I studied very hard, I joined as a dancer, joined in some catwalk of big events, joined as student center organization, joined in an competition, etc. I did those because it was a social pressure! I know that my parents do not ask me to be the best. But, I wanted to be the best among others.

Besides that, I also did best treatment for my self, even I was just in Junior High School. If you were my junior high school’s friend, you’ll know that I had long hair, and I always do hair treatment every week. Then in Senior High School I did treatment for facial. I was also loved to wear short skirt, etc. I did those so that it’ll encourage me to be a confident girl. Not only smart but also beautiful and fashionable.

The climax was when in Senior High School. When I accepted as a student in that school, I promised to my self that I will be the best. So, I studied very hard, joined to a home schooling, extra class in school, etc. And until finally I accepted as a science student then passed the graduate with best score, I got 90 for almost all subjects(both national exam and school exam).

Next, I joined the test to get a scholarship of medicines. My dream was to be a doctor. So, for the first test I got rank 3 in Semarang. But, then they did a test again and just picked 2 the best. I wasn’t two the best at that time, because I was sick and got headache. I couldn’t answer and even to concentrate. So, I lost my hope there.... but then, there were still more chances from SBMPTN, and SNMPTN (those are kind of test name in Indonesia for choosing univ). I chose all mediciness in universities...but FAILED. I was really really down. I was stress and pimples were everywhere on my face, but then my parents cheered me up. They said that do not be the best, but be your best. They asked me to register to another university in majoring education. So yeah, I did!!!

Now I am majoring in English education, soon to graduate (Amen). And is managing a little business of education (courses). Sometimes working as a speaker in seminar, tour guide of exchange participants, and supervisor. I know that those are meant by God. God is good, so I always think positive and do positive!

... do everything what parents love since it good. I realized that being a teacher in the future, I will be able to manage my time between job and future family.

So after that, I learned a lot... that a dream is not coming up from our selves, but someone else,,,it can be our parent...

Chasing the goals to be the best will make me forget what is the more important... it is some who love us... family and God.

Now I know that everything I do should give positive impact to other people.

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okaay so just that...if you want to know the story of being a hostfam of EP from Korea, you can keep waiting!!